You can enter anything really: shopping, eating, drinking, smoking, drug taking, working, Facebooking(!) etc. Bingeing is described as “Unrestrained and often excessive indulgence. An act of compulsive consumption.”
There are times we all do things to excess, fortunately for most it is a short lived thing or it can be controlled with some will-power without causing too much of a problem. However during episodes of bi-polar highs or lows there is little control over bingeing, often with little or no awareness, and it can continue for some time.
As is common with most bipolar sufferers, my bingeing used to be buying in excess. I’ve bought a variety of cars on a whim, including an Audi A6, Lotus Elise and Range Rover….all of which I couldn’t afford. Other times I’ve splashed out on luxury, exotic holidays; expensive, wardrobes full of clothes and even a couple of houses (once I sent Jez a text to tell him we’d just bought a house!)
These crazy acts are hard to control, in fact even nowadays with medication and the awareness I have it’s still difficult to stop the bingeing. Although the excess and compulsion is there the restraint is much better, Jez keeps an eye on me and I am now able to recognise the start of a bingeing episode.
It’s only been recently that I’ve realised my binge/over-eating and drinking is related to my bi-polar, it’s such a relief to realise and ‘come-to-terms’ with this, accepting it as part of my condition. The only temptations I have are the same temptations other people have. But I can trust God. He will never let me be tempted more that I can bear. But when I am tempted, God will also give me a way to avoid temptation (1 Corinthains 10:13)
Therefore I’m taking steps to manage it better with a 40 day ‘stronghold busting programme’. I don’t expect it to cure me but to simply help me manage and be in more control of my bingeing. The programme consists of identifying the ‘lie and effect’ on my life followed by a selection of actual ‘truths’ from God, ending with a prayer. I‘ll come back after 40 days to let you know how I get on.